Rainy Spring

It is so cold in the early March, and it’s going along pretty well with my feelings lately. The rain is nonstop and gloomy. I am tired of playing computer games every night after work, but there is nothing much I can do about it, since living outside of town so far makes everything too far to reach. Again, I am left alone, and I need to find something to do. Jogging every night is a great idea, and I’d definitely do it after the rain stops. Also, I start to read at night, so that I can focus on something else to consume the energy I am having after dinner. It’s mostly self-addicted, and I am just thinking of anything I can possibly do.

I have four roomies now, and it’s true I am holding back from them, although one of the girls is quite cordial, who knocked my door several times for chitchat. I acted pretty tough, and I believe they just think I am the arrogant pain-in-the-ass type of person. I am not giving any pretext here, but one thing I could not understand is my colleague roommate told his colleagues that I had business trips every week, staying in 5 star hotels each time, even when the economical environment is terrible right now. Obviously, the way our team “lavishes” money is not appropriate at all, which is totally not true, since he just assumes my absence from the house every time is only due to the trip. Too simple, too naive…LOL…Or maybe he was just trying to pick up some casual conversation with me by asking, “ So you were having the trip again?”  I just don’t appreciate it, because it causes misunderstandings not only between him and I, but also between different work teams. Be smart, dude. As for the girls, I’d love to get to know them better, but after she told me: “we don’t close the door when we sleep at night”, I thought that was just not someone I’d like to know. It’s too partial to jump to the conclusion that they are not good people, but right now, I am really locking myself up in my room, having my own space and time, and I don’t want to change it. I am no good than anyone else, and maybe I can feel better if I change my attitude otherwise, but I am looking for the alternative way out and I am just too tired to get out there and throw parties with them or something.