I know it’s already a little bit late to say this, but for me I don’t see anything exciting in this summer, as lots of things are awaiting me in front. I am sure there will be loads of things I need to finish before September and there will be a change in my life as well. I am more calm than ever when I really reach the point where I thought I would have been thrilled and excited. Because there is no free meal in this world, and in order to get something, we pay for it. And that’s what keeps our sanity-we deserve what we are having right now, and we cherish what we have at this stage of our lives.
I did not sleep well last night, mainly because my thoughts always brought me back to 17 years ago when I left my childhood friends and my own playground without saying a goodbye. I admit I changed a lot after I knew I would never get back to them again. There were good changes and there was something bad, but I don’t regret what I have done so far. Those memories are just so vivid, and it’s like when I get up in the morning I can still ask my friends to go to school with me; and I still remember our own pranks and the places we often hung out. If there is any chance I could get back to that little town to see, I would do it without hesitation, to say goodbye to the place where I used to be so familiar. Although I know my parents wouldn’t understand, it means a lot to me.
As for my life in Shanghai, it’s been quite peaceful and quiet, and I can finally have my inner peace without being disturbed by others. I have an appointment with the doctor this weekend, and next week there will be more things going on. Hopefully everything goes well.