So finally the summer is coming to an end. Surely I will remember this summer. Summer used to be fun time with infinity possibilities of things to do. But this time, rhythm was built in a way that wasn't what I envisioned. I didn't travel as what I thought I would have and this limbo state is suffocating. I think it's a good thing that it's almost over.
Tuesday, August 19, 2025
Monday, July 7, 2025
July
I thought this summer would have been great, but when reality hit, I really don't know when things will get better. It's always easy to destruct than to construct-way more easier. Destruction costs nothing but impulsion, but construction takes everything from perseverance, wisdom, strength, and so many more. I am trying to keep my sanity every day and I don't remember last time the pain was so consistently long. It's been difficult but I think I can still do it...
Thursday, May 22, 2025
Cold May
May is almost over and it wasn't warm this month. Memorial Day weekend is also supposed to be cold. That's what I have to deal with, so let it be. I cannot change what's around me, so I will just have to get used to it.
Friday, April 18, 2025
This Spring
Wednesday, April 2, 2025
Meet Andrew
Maybe it was just meant to be sometimes. When God sends you a signal, you might as well take it. I wasn't looking for a dog though I miss Pierre and Eddie. This black toy poodle reminded me of our Andrew we lost years ago. To have "Andrew" back would mean so much at this moment. So I did something crazy by driving hours all by myself to adopt him! I waited in the parking lot for over 30min and thought I was stood up. When I started to laugh at myself for doing something stupid like this, I got the text replying to me saying that her son had her phone and that was why she missed the time. Fortunately, I didn't leave and waited until that Honda van eventually showed up. She apologized, but I was grateful that this dream finally came true-he just looks like Andrew! The birth name on the CKC certificate won't be used and his name is Andrew!
I was trying to listen to a book on the way back but he was unsettling and started to woof, which sounded like he was singing. I know everything was new to him, the smell, the surroundings, the bumpy ride in my ancient car, and me. So he must be stressed from separating from that family. I switched to the music for him and hoping I won't fall asleep while driving. I started to woof with him and sing to the songs I was playing. Maybe he sensed my energy that needed the company, he settled down on my lab and leaned his head on my body. He looked up at me while I was singing "Exile" and I looked back at him in his eyes. That didn't take too long for him to fall asleep on my lap.
I gave him a shower and groomed him after coming back home. I am glad Andrew is back!